I'm in quandary

Heeey my blog,I love you so much that's why I often spamming here hehe. hmm today I wanna tell about love life.
I have tell on my previous blog that I have crush on mr.gruvi *that's not his real name, I mention like that so that other people don't know him hehe*
yep! I don't know my feeling on him for this time. I don't know am I crazy in falling in love or is it another crush?
that time he had close to a girl and she seemed like the girl, and she is also very close to me. we do fun things on facebook chat and we make a joke like heem a couple hehe. but in other side,he really really care with that girl and it makes me jealous! I don't know what on his mind. 
and finally,he doesn't close to that girl anymore because that girl telling fake things to him and I know,it makes him hurting. 
now,he doesn't close to me anymore like before. we act like did not know each other. but my friend said that he stare at me while I was silent and I don't see him. 


udah ya langsung ke Indonesia lagi nih hehe. dan akhirnya waktu dia liat liat fotokopian kisi kisi temen gue yang hmm agak sensi gitu deh,gue bilangin dia kayak gini 'eh jangan di ambil,ntar si *biiip* marah lho!* entah kenapa dia langsung nurut sama gue. gitu juga waktu gue mau presentasi. salah satu temen gue nggak masuk dan materi presentasinya tuh dia. akhirnya gue maju ke depan untuk bilang ke guru gue itu. karena dia duduknya agak depanan,dia tiba tiba nanya gue gini 'eh ada apa?' aduuuh gue bingung bingung. kenapa dia kayak begitu sekarang? huh! anybody help me?

Good Bye / Separation

and it is song lyric about separation :

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

by : Dionne Warwick - That's What Friends Are For

Is this my beginning
or is this the end?
When will I see you again? . . .
Hoo-oo- a hoo-oo
precious moments
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning
or is this the end?
When will I

by: the three degrees - when will I see you again 

Goodbye my friend (I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end (You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it,
Time will never change it

by: Spice Girl - Goodbye

and it makes me realize how precious separation is: 

As we go on we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change from whatever
We will still be friends Forever

by : Vitamin C - Graduation 

however,separation is the things that we hate. but it makes me know how life precious if it dissapear from us